I washed myself for hours to get her touch off of my skin. I cut my skin to get her out of my blood, my system and my veins. I drank to numb my brain to stop the memories. I blasted my music to get her goddam voice out of my head so why the hell would I want to step into that world again. I broke myself to get away from it I’m not so stupid as to jump back in.
Why would I want to jump back not a world that may be broken but broke me and that I broke myself for? You fucking destroyed me before I destroyed myself. You took the light out of my eyes, threw it away then went crawling back into her arms. You took the energy out of my body and discarded it out of your window then went and kissed her lips, just like you had kissed mine. You don’t deserve her and you never deserved me.
So when they asked why I washed for so long, cut so deep, drank myself silly and blasted my music. When they ask why I don’t want that world again. That’s why. Because you used me. Because you broke me. Because you killed me inside you heartless fuck.